anglespirit

I never thought I will write in this blog again. My world came tumbling towards me hearing the news that you'll soon arrive. I got really disturbed. The time stops. I told myself this is not happening.

I know I shouldn't be thinking that you're going back because of me. You got your own life, and you don't intend to include me into that. I was jealous with your past ex-es. You still are friends with them, even though they or should i say she, have wronged you. Guess you really love that girl. And yet you even ignored and deleted me on your fb friends, when all i did is to love you.

It's a good thing that I'm leaving the country before your arrival. I might just chase you, which I don't want to happen, if ever you'll be here before my flight.I'm saving my self-respect. I may have been loving you til now, but I won't let my self respect thrown away. I just hope I can just move on just like you did.

I really hope this will be my last blog for you. I'm trying my best to let all my feelings for you go.

anglespirit

i don't know how i feel..but i hope this is going to be my last blog for you..

honestly, i'm relieved when you broke up with me.. i don't have to worry about our future anymore..but still there is emptiness in me.. something that i can't explain even to myself...

you are really working hard to forget me..and i guess it's what i have to do too...i asked you.. if you still love me..and you said no.. i asked you if you're happier without me, and if you want me out of your life, and you we're just annoyed..telling me that you don't have to answer that question and you won't..but it would really helped me to go on with my life if you answered it.. i really wanted to move on with my life just the way you told me.. but you just made me suffer more with your actions..so now, i'll only believe what you have said..

it's really sad, that i tried my best to be part of your world..but then i want my identity too..i can't be like you..i can only be me loving you...and you didn't even see that i'm trying...

in the end..it's me who takes all this pain...i'm hoping that we'll see each other soon, but i'm not expecting it anymore..i don't want to be angry.i dont wanna be lonely..i don't wanna be bitter..but i'm praying that i'll find my own happiness soon.. because obviously you found yours...

i really wish i can find the reason why i love you..so that  i know how to take reason away to stop this stupidity..you didn't break my heart..you crushed it..and i swear, if someone will give me his heart..i'm gonna take care of that...i won't let it be crushed...i'm gonna love that heart more than life, and more than you...

Goodbye chino!!

anglespirit

ang lambing mo tlga ngaun..hndi ko alam kung gusto ko yun o hndi..lalo kitang namiss eh...

miss na miss na kita....sana andito ka na lang.or nandyan na lang ako...i wanna be with you in any way...but there's nothing we can do for now..

nalilito na talaga ko dhil wala ka pa ring balak para sa tin..i just really miss you..balik ka na kasi.o kaya sunduin mo na ko...or sabihin mo man lang balak mo...

i know that i just have to trust you...that you have really plans when the right time comes...i just miss you so much that i can't help myself but cry..

anglespirit

i really feel bad not giving myself time to talk with you today..i should have known that you'll be gone for a few days.. i could have given you my time. i'll try t make it up next time..i love you so much!!